I've been getting to lots of Mysore classes recently and kapotasana is less daunting both physically and emotionally. With assistance I can get there and when I practice it alone I can now hear the calming voice of one of my teachers. She says "keep your head up, I know you want to let it down but if you do it's game over". Much easier to push myself when there is really someone there but the advice and calmness is useful, all the same.
Last week I had a strong emotional release during drop backs, content irrelevant really but I cried and since then Kapotasana is less of an ordeal. There may be more to consolidate there and I am grateful to have a practice in my life, that seems to heal me, when I am ready to let go. I feel much better for it in so many ways.
On Monday my teacher gave my a new pose, so I am now practicing up to Bakasana B. Bakasana is fun and adds some lightness to my practice. On Sunday I met fellow bloggers Mel, Kevin and Susan. It was lovely to spend some time with them sharing our experiences of life on and off the mat. It's another week until I get to go to the shala and that seems just the right amount of time. I'm enjoying practicing alone again but also loving having teachers.